Brianna Sharee

Beauty, life and style blog

“You’re beautiful but you’re too fat”

I have to laugh at the title. It’s always amazed me when I hear that from people. Can’t really say I’ve heard it from friends too because I’ve always been the fat girl. Every time I turn a guy down, he comes back at me with something along the lines of “you’re too fat” ” you need to lose some weight” ” you’re ugly anyways” but I love how my weight never mattered as you approached me very much sarcasm here by the way.

Why do some men feel like that’s the correct way to ‘get back’ at a fat girl when she turns him down? I mean, do they think we think we are not fat? Do they feel like we will cry and beg for them to accept us just because we are fat? I wish a man would think that about me. I have come a damn long ways of finding my self confidence in my body and looks and I refuse to give it up just because your feelings are hurt.

I am not obligated to bow down to you just because I am a fat girl. I am not obligated to feel like you are my only option. I am not obligated to lower my standards because I am a fat girl. I will never again feel bad for being fat. Yes there are some places I want to work on, which I am. But will you telling me that I am fat get me down? Maybe in my teen years when I was lost and had no esteem. But not now, buddy. As my mother always said, ” I can lose my weight but you can’t lose your ugly.”

It’s just so amusing to me that men think fat girls are obligated to accept any man that finds interest in us. We are not obligated to anybody but ourselves. We are obligated to love ourselves. We are obligated to care for ourselves, take ourselves out to dinner, show ourselves a good time, and again, love ourselves. If we can’t do that, we damn sure shouldn’t expect it from some man who will probably end up abusing us in some way, shape, or form if he has the mentality that we are obligated to respect him just because we are fat. 

To my fat girls, if you feel offended for me using the term ‘fat’ please don’t be. I don’t mean it in a bad way in any way, shape, or form. I have come to terms with my weight and I know I’m fat. I’m not going to deny it. Yes it can be a harsh word when used wrong but when used correctly, it’s cute. Fat is cute. What matters is your attitude, personality, and heart. Not our weight. We all have someone out there that will love us and our fat. And he or she will be blessed with our love and loyalty when the time is right.

Blessed to be fat,

Shai.

Accepting my Puff

I had my first perm/relaxer at around 10 years old if memory serves me correct. I’ve kept relaxers in until I was 21-22. August of 2013 was my last relaxer and now I am completely natural. It has been a complete journey. I’m still learning my hair and how to care for it!

There have been many times that I wanted to go back to the relaxer since it was easier to manage my hair with it in but the reason I stopped relaxing was because my hair has literally not grown in over 10 years. My bangs grow quickly when I cut them, but the rest of my hair? It takes forever. I haven’t big chopped but I’m thinking of doing so this season so that my hair can become fully healthy again. I just clipped my ends (literally less than an inch of hair) this past Monday and I didn’t freak out so I’m going to cut the rest of my bad ends so my hair can grow better and love me more. I’m still learning hairstyles for natural women as well. My go-to is a twist out. I practically live by those.

On good notes, my hair actually has grown in the past month that I’ve done nothing to it. Seriously guys, I was moving, sick, tired and I didn’t do anything to my hair. Nothing. and it grew noticeably. I guess when they say “leave it alone and let it grow” they mean it.

My products that I use are please ignore the background. I’m limited on space.

Not pictured are my shampoo and conditioner which is Pantene for relaxed/natural hair.IMG_2664-2

I’ve been really loving my hair lately and here is a picture of it in its natural state.

image3the length surprised the hell out of me to be honest. I didn’t expect it to be such a difference! This is my hair freshly washed also. No conditioner or any products in it. My hair is died so I think that’s why there seems to be a difference in my curl pattern from root to ends, but I am happy with my puff all around (and yes, this is me with no makeup)!

Happily Natural,

Shai

 

Gods Word: Putting in the hard work

Growing up I was never as close to God as I am now. It was for numerous reasons. My entire 23 years of life has been in poverty or poor. Never were we rich or middle class. It was always hard and we always lived pay check to pay check. Now that I have started my own business I have become much more closer to God though I still have a long journey to go.

Too often has my mind kept me where I currently am. I’m so used to not getting any better in life, used to staying in the mediocrity of success, used to not having good luck or fortune that when I wanted more, the thought of asking for it made me feel selfish and non-appreciative. Branching more into God and my faith, I’ve realized that My God is a big God, a Strong God, and a willing God. What I ask of, for the betterment of me or my people, he will provide; I just have to do the work. It will happen on His terms, His time, yes, but it will happen. He provides everything that I need, always has and always will, but the things that I want….He wants me to work for and I fully understand that.

I just have to fully get my mind to grasp this knowledge. The Devil works hard to keep you away from God and when things get rough, the first thoughts of mine are usually, “this isnt meant to happy, I didn’t work hard enough, this isnt the right time, I’m never going to get better. I’m going to have to make horrible decisions to make it happen myself” instead of, “God is testing me and my faith, I will make it through this, There will be no more struggles, I am happy where I am, I am thankful for these struggles as they make me who I am, they strengthen me.” Changing the mind when it’s used to something is, I feel, one of the hardest things to do in life.

 

Back home and back to work.

Hello! I have lots of videos and some pictures to edit and share with you all. 

Vacationing is really a blessing but also a struggle for a germophobe lol. I am quite tired from my ride home so I doubt this will be very long or detailed but the trip was overall a success. We all managed to have fun and enjoy ourselves. There was a tiny bit of animosity here and there but we are a family and we made the best of things! I know I thoroughly enjoyed my time in South California and I plan to go back very soon. 

Downtown Disney is amazing. It was so beautiful and peaceful. The fact that we went at night just put icing on the cake! It was magical. Plus it was free and who doesn’t love free magical things? I know I do. We went to T.G.I.Fridays for my brothers birthday dinner, my auntie got lost trying to get there so we missed out on celebrating it together lol 

The house of blues is a really amazing place to be when you want to have fun and enjoy yourself. Karaoke night is a blast! The drinks and food there are really good as well. A bit pricey but it’s in Downton Disney, what do you really expect? 

Micks blew the crowd away with his performance of Uptown Funk and many other bold restaurant participants performed amazingly as well! My voice was almost gone from all the cheering and singing I did lol

More later! Stay tuned. 

Shai. 

Busy Body(quick note)

If you’ve visited Shai’s Bakery blog lately, you would notice I havent been active. Well I’m going on vacation Tuesday and have been preparing for it for a while! Secretly planning a birthday vacation from a nosy little brother takes a lot of work. Ive missed out on some good posts for my blogging101 but I will catch up, even though I believe it will be over when I get back!

I plan to film and document the whole trip as I have lots of goodies planned so I will post about it, pictures, videos, and more when I get back!

P.s, I’m planning to learn how to apply makeup and create a youtube for said creations. I really want to connect with people in the world and I feel that would be a great start. Letting the idea stew for a while (also I’m looking for a better camera).

Happy baking!
Shai

Meet Shai

I think it’s time I introduce myself. I’m Shai this is my nickname. I am 23 years old, a December babyborn two weeks later than scheduled, and I love snow.

I created this blog for my website Shai’s Bakery. I wanted my customers to be able to stay updated with new things Shais Bakery related. This is also a personal goal for me. I’ve created countless blogs and have never been able to stay loyal to them for some odd reason. I always ran out of inspiration to post, not to mention I could barely find anything to write about. This blog will have insights here and there about my life in general but most of my posts will be relating to my bakery, cooking, baking, and working.

I use to be a very outgoing person who loved to meet new people and experience life in different ways through the eyes of friends. I want to get that quality back. I was in a dark place in my life for pretty much all my teen years, literally from 13 to 19 and since I’ve broken away from the darkness and found my light, I am working to find myself again and find that outgoing girl I used to be so I want to meet all kinds of people and connect with them.

In the long run, I hope this blog will create a certain place of home for readers to share with me. I want to form relationships with people through our loveand struggles of blogging.

Happy baking!

Shai

 

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